“We accept the love we think we deserve.”
― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower
Love. What a tricky subject. I have touched on ideas with love in previous
thoughts, but with the dreaded holiday for the month looming, I can't help bring up
thoughts once again.
I know for a fact that I have much love when it comes to family, and friendships.
There is no doubt whatsoever. I am abundantly blessed, and am thankful for that every
day. As we all know though, this “holiday to sell an abundance of candy, flowers, and
cards,” is all about the 'romantic' love of relationships and people. And that is what
puzzles me like a triangular Rubik's cube.
The romantic aspect of love. I have never understood it. Ever. How some people it's so easy for them to find that certain someone, and others it is not. I hope I'm not alone in the boat when I say (and others who struggle with this) what am I doing wrong? What did I do wrong that I don't deserve that kind of love? Some may say nothing. Others have their suggestions. And I know that love like that doesn't just fall out of the sky, and land in your lap. But I would think sometimes it presents itself at least once to you if not a few times. But there really hasn't been a presentation. I think someone forgot to save the PowerPoint. If you are lucky enough to have found that person, than I am very happy for you. If you have found at least one person who has ever liked you (for a certain time good or bad). I am happy for you. Heck, I am jealous. Because you have found that holy grail. That unicorn. That pot of gold. And that is a tremendous task, to me, that you have found it. People see it as an everyday thing I think sometimes. I see it as such a rarity, even though so many people are 'in love.' They think it's a common place. I see it like that, because I don't know what that is. Don't take love (the 'in love kind') for granted. There are many who want it. But they will never have it. I have never really had that kind of love. Would I love that kind of love? Yes! But do I see it happening? No. Because the sad thing is, I apparently am accepting the love that I think I deserve.
-Hamnet by Maggie O'Farrell
-Heartwood Box by Ann Aguirre
-Magic Lessons by Alice Hoffman
-Tending Roses, Good Hope Road, & The Language of Sycamores by Lisa Wingate
-Whisper Network by Chandler Baker
-The Russian by James Patterson
Stop in and see us. Fun Fridays are happening this month where you can buy a baked
good, purchase a used book, or even check out something from our collection. It all
supports the library. We are always happy to help. And as always as a reminder, stay